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Dec 30
This term's holiday may be the worst holiday i have ever had...
From the moment i wake up, hands on the keyboard (of course that is after i finished bathing and brushing my teeth.) until at night just before go to bed, hands still on the keyboard. Trust me i don't have any gd reason that keeps my hands on the keyboard all the time. It is all meant to kill the boredom. Well, apparently it works for that moment but after my hands off the addicting keyboard, everything back to normal. I am still that one filled with emptiness while lying on the bed. And still telling myself that tmr i will REALLY work on that material report. Day by day.. Sad to say that the report guide is still lying there, inside one of my files which i put on the bookself.

Argh! Life is boring! =.=

Dec 23
Ok lately i have been a bit free. (shd say very free, until don know what to do.) Maybe only is boring and meaningless for me. Maybe what i expected before was like 1 day or 2 days kind of holiday. 2 weeks is a really long time if u have nth on ur hands.

So i spent sometimes did some thinking. I think i have to clear this now or then to avoid further misunderstanding. Ok i am not rich, neither my father does. No point saying i am rich when i am not. LOL. So all clear abt this? Ok i guess we are. :)

Dec 20
Wow.. it's already Dec 20th. i wans't awared that today is Dec 20th until i am writing this blog. Oh god...

Holiday started on the 18th Dec, Oh, actually it started on the 17th afternoon officially. Went to catch a movie, called "Avatar", with my fren. Frankly at 1st i thought this movie was a crap, just like those soap opera has no true meaning. (and plus the creatures in this movie were ugly, disgusting and crappy. Well most of them..) So it didn't bring me a gd impression abt itself. But after finished watching it, i found myself was wrong at the start. The show was amazing! I mean besides the fantastic scenes like waterfall and floating islands all those, the show has its meaning. Sometimes we are just too imperious. We get our little profit by hurting others. Even force others to obey our own rules. It's just inhumanity..

In this world no1 is owing you anything. If u want the things around you to get better, you just have to work on it by yourself.. No1 is supposed to help you. But if he is kind enough to do it for you then be appreciated.

Dec 18
Almost forget i still have a blog. Although i started it not long ago, i said i will keep it updated when the first time i created it. So yea.. i didn't keep my promise. Many reasons that i didn't come to update this blog. The main reason was i was having exam early this week, 4 modules in the row. There wasn't enough time for me to come here and think abt something interesting and post it. Well there wasn't anything interesting either..

Anyway, exams are over now. enjoying holiday. :) (there will be more tmr. keep it up.)

Dec 07
Come to my blog again.. It has been abandoned for quite a few days..

Well, recently don't really anything takes up my memory, makes me thinking of it. That's also part of the reasons that i didn't come to update my blog for a few days. Everyday my life switches only between school and home. No where else..

Yea i know it's kind of no life. But that's my life, only has black and white in colour. Maybe it's time to change lifestyle. Maybe..

Dec 03
Today finished the maths test 3. Felt quite ok about the paper. Can't get full marks though, and nvr think of getting full marks. I don't expect that much from myself cos i know who i am and what i am capable of..

There is always a limit, a boundary that we nvr think of crossing it. Becos we keep telling ourselves millions times that we can't make it before we even step on it. So the line is still there, and it will be there forever although it's only about the hair-thickness. But beyond that line, will be a new standard achieved. A brand new standard for what u are capable of..

My target is to across my own boundary. Across the line that i nvr even think of crossing it.. Race starts from now!
                  
            

Dec 03
Yesterday watched movie "9" around midnight. Although i was very sleepy, i still managed to stay awake until the end. The scientist in the movie created the thing so called "Brain", to help our people in machine building industries, it increases the speed of building. But somehow they did not use it on the right things, in the end it turns out to be a war between human species and machines. So the doll, named No.9 supposed to destory the "Brain" with other alive dolls... (for more info plz go watch the movie or read the movie review. haha..)

After the movie, i felt that things been created with gd intention originally also can be used to do the harm. There is no clear boundary between gd and evil. It all depends on our own moral value, depend on how u look at things.. Anyway it was a really gd movie. Very inspirational.. (recommend.)

Dec 02
It's Dec already. time flies.. It passes by really fast. Never stops..

I can say that i have recoved from flu. (just recoved.) No more sore throat but still having block nose. Well, it's not a big deal. It's just a small symptom of flu..

But have to say "even a small creature can cause huge impact." (example: butterflies)

Ok shd back to the point.. Recently i have stopped moving forward. Maybe u all can't feel it but i know myself the best. The feeling is like u have lost something in life, something important. But u have no idea of when it disappeares, How it disappeares and u even have NO idea of what it is.. It's just gone.. Like evaporate completely, no clue remains..

All the time i have been thinking and seeking, thinking and seeking.. No sign of it...

Well, I still have to move on, with it or without it.. Guess i just need to a purpose in life. Get rid of all the distractions. Let's move on.

Nov 30
Oh no.. i am sick.. again.. In the 5yrs that i have been here, i sick N times already. So this is the N+1 time i am sick. Really feel myself very weak physically. (shd have been to gym more often.)

Today still went to school although i was not feeling well. Having sore throat and blocking nose. (trust me that feeling is worse than fever.) It was just terrible... And spent 1 dollar on the tissue paper. LOL. Went to see doctor in the afternoon so that i can recover fast. :)

I AM SICK AGAIN! ARGH!

Nov 29
Just came back from competition. (from monday 9am to 7pm at night..) It was just so long.. OMG so tired sia.. Came back home don't feel like doing anything ready, but yet still have somethings need to be prepared.
Next week jia la, there are 3 class tests waiting for me. But the point is this weekends i didn't touch my book at all! not even for 1mins..

Well, the only thing i can do now is... PRAY.. (!@#$%^&*....) O_O|||

       

Nov 27
Watching movie on PPS but it's loading very slow now so i think i shd come here and write my blog for today. Haha..

I intended to study today la but in the end still didn't read a single page. Haiz.. Instead of studying i went to nap for 7 hours! Well, napping is kind of waste time. Worse, after woke up i felt dizzy until now.. LOL. It was so boring at home...

Looking for some1 studying together next week. Any1 interested plz tag thanks. :)

Nov 26
Just realise that usually i happen to write my blog at around this time. Maybe the peace that i am looking for only have it at this time. Haha... I belong to the night..

Today is going to end soon. (in abt 20 mins time) I didn do much today though. Felt tired so slacked almost the whole day. LOL. And some1 wasn't very happy that i didn't go library accompany her?! (=.=) Eh seriously, there is a gd guy waiting for u and yet he is still pended. I really believe that he is gd guy although u always say that i don't even know him. (i tell u why next time) I have faith in him! haha.. Anyway, it's just a 'YES' or ' NO' question, not as difficult as u thought.

Going to study tmr even though it's public holiday. (still have eng assignment to complete) And next week will have 3 class tests. Argh! My brain cells are going to die a lot again.. (btw i feel the growth rate of my brain cells is higher than the death rate of it. That's why my head is getting bigger and bigger every yr. LOL.) (Ok it was a joke..)

Sleeping le, 12 mid night has just reached, and yet i am wishing to see the dawn... Nights. :) 

Nov 24
Came back from training, again.. Tiredness remains. Well, on my way home i was actually refreshed my memory abt last sem, when we just got to know each other. We well mixed with each other, had laughs, had fun. (although now we still have laughs and fun, just not so often) At least that time i felt most of us (almost all) were happy inside, deep down in our heart. (get to know new friends is always one of the most wonderful things in our life) Guess u all agree with me ba..
However, this sem seems to give us a tough time. More mugging modules, more lousy teachers. doesn't match huh... Unfortunately some of us have changed in this sem, a sudden change that make the rest stunned and wonder. The usual smiles have been wiped away from those familiar faces, silently. WHY? If stress is the reason for your change then i only can say plz take it easy. We all know it's tough and depressing becos we are going through the same thing, excatly the same as you are going through. Well if the reason is something else... Then you know we won't be far away..

Listen to ur heart, its beat is telling you to face the truth, face what u have to face. Be brave!
   

Nov 23
Just back home. Very tired.. Wanted to sleep le but thinking shd update my blog 1st before go to bed. So i am here to complain my busy week ahead.. (sigh..) Last weekends i just had competition at toa payoh STTA, from morning to afternoon. Then following by the frequent trainings in this week. (actually every week is the same just that last weekends and this weekends have competition : p) This week cant even find a time to study. LOL. It's just too tired, maybe can use the word 'exhausted'.. Hope comment tests can come faster and end faster so i can have my peaceful Xmas. :)

Nov 20
Today school started at noon (12pm) becos morning class cancelled. (It doesn't make much difference though..) So straight away went for machining today, thought it would end up like last week again. I didn't expect that i can catch up with the rest of my classmates and didn't even bother to ask teacher abt the steps.(still got ask teacher for a few times) So i just looked at the diagram given and did it myself.. (Paper touch, set the depth then anto feeding..) In the end i finished quite fast.. Haha.. :)
But i still hate machining. HATE MACHINING!

Nov 19
Raining day, I just screwed my maths test few hours ago. Had a lot of mistakes here and there.. Haha.. i was overconfident abt the maths yesterday. Didn't revise at all abt how to draw the graph. So today mixed up the period formula and the phase shift formula. Argh..
Well, still ok cos it was just a class test. Will be more careful next time. LOL. :)

Nov 18
To her :
            Hey, how was ur holiday in ur hometown? Maybe this time round was not ideal as u thought.. Heard some of ur family issues were really bothering u. Well i don't really have any nice suggestions or advice here, becos i know family issues family members know it the best. I'll just wait here and ready to listen to ur gd news again.. :)
            Well, about the things between us, i will say it's just our fate (i mean maybe we're just not the right person for each other). U are a really nice girl. Smart, beautiful, thoughtful, sensitive and so much more.. I'm glad that we have made it that far. I still rmb the 1st day we met, the 1st movie we went together, the 1st time went for our actual dating.. Rmb every smile on ur face through out the whole 3 months.. Now i have it all in my memory, deep down there. Maybe it is all i have and it is all i left...
            I know i am not a bf material, not very caring, maybe not even caring at all..(if there is a bf course i will definitely go for a try. Haha..) I feel bad that i am not up to a bf standard. But i was trying, though it was not enough, it was never enough.. And i really appreciated that u gave me the chance to be ur bf, really appreciated.. Thanks.
            Well, thinking on the bright side, for the past 3 months we made a great progress of knowing each other. I am sure i know u much better compared with 3 months before. Haha.. So we can make a better friend now, a very close friend. :)
            Ok, i think that's quite a lot ready (i am not writing a letter FYI.). Here is just sth that i want u to know, they are all here. Btw there was no blame, no angriness.(i didn't blame or mad at u, really not) A bit disappointed maybe.. Haha.. Well it all passed... I am still willing to share ur burden and be there for u whenever u need me.
            Hope u will find ur Mr Right one day, soon..
And
            If  u take a look at me so u can see how beautiful u are.
            (But your beauty seems so far away...)
   

Nov 16
Today was a long day for me. My class started at 8 am and at night had training until 9pm. Wah super tired lah! Start to feel that my course is not that easy to study. LOL.
I did my fren's a fav today afternoon in the library by helping her fren to solve maths question. Glad that i still rmb what i have to rmb and it feels gd to help a fren. Oh yah for the reason why she didn't and could't help her own fren is becos that she FORGOT how to solve. (what a nice answer..) So if according to her rules or principles or whatever.. Where is my bubble tea?? Haha.. :)

Nov 15
I am back. back to the normal self. thinking back, feel that it's so stupid to make it as such a big deal. Ah how silly! LOL. Thanks to the weekends, i feel fresh and optimistic although it's boring. Well still hate machining, that never change.. haha..
Btw today 0:36 am i still saw quite a number of my classmates online (i mean MSN). Your must be really energetic. haha.. i was very curious abt what were you all doing at that time...

Nov 13
为什么越来越觉得
自己不适合做朋友
太过得骄傲与自私
并不是朋友的追求
就连互相坦诚面对
我却一直无法学会
独自一人恍惚蹒跚
在每个黑暗的角落
我告诉自己要坚强
不需要泪水的安慰
相信黎明那道曙光
会抚平已创伤的心
一直相信一直坚持
那从未有过的坚强
想说只想说的那句
对不起。。

Nov 13
Yesterday was my 2 classmates' birthday. 1 boy and 1 girl. Quite a gd match. LOL. So after maths tut that day we gave them a surprise. Of course it wasn't planned by me but i do participate in that whole birthday celebration thing. Haha..

I felt the most funny part of the whole celebration was de yi pressed nicole's whole face into the cake (he didn press really hard though). At that moment nicole's face was buried into the cake (at least half of her face was inside) then followed by an instant blushing. LOL. Yah i guess it was embarrassed..

We went to play bowling after that. Then walked around the shopping centre aimlessly (that's what we usual do for outing..). I had fried fish with melted cheese for my dinner, it tasted great. (btw i can't rmb the name of the restaurant). haha.. Anyway wish that two people happy birthday. :)

Nov 11
Frankly, i don't like the Materials Technology.( guess all of my classmates don't like this module) Well although don't like it, still have to do our report and pass it up on time. So today we discussed it in the library, the 1st formal discussion after 1 whole week. Haha..
At 1st i thought the discussion itself will turn out to be a chitchat section or just waste our time there maybe. Becos most of my group members are slackers (maybe yue shan ad fish are not) including me. Sad to say this but it's the fact, slackers just bond better with slackers! Haha.. However i was totally wrong with it. The discussion turned out to be a pretty good one as very fast and efficient. At least i think so.. Haha..
So in conclusion. "Slackers are brilliant." :)

Nov 11
Well after 2 days, i am still trying very hard to change some basic setting of my blog. Becos my blog suddenly can't show the date of my post. All the settings have been setted the way that it suppose to show the date together with the post title. But it never show...
I am really like ==||| now, really don't know where is wrong of my setting. Kind of give up on the date setting ready. I just want to show the date that's it. Is it so hard to show the date? gosh. >.<

Nov 10
1st time created a blog. Didn't know it's kind of complicated thing to do. Especially the HTML edit, it really needs some time to figure it out. However it quite interesting to think abt the HTML code and make it follow the pattern u want it to be. That's why last night i slept at 2am. Haha.. Now very tired, falling asleep soon.. Zzz..

Nov 9
Finally decided to start writing my blog. I have been thinking abt it few days ago. Maybe it's just a short-term passion or just want to try out new things that I haven't tried before, I am not sure. Well, whatever reason it is doesn't matter, it's how long i can keep writing this blog and keep it updated. :)